Motivational Speech-JK Rowling -“The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination”
“The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the
Importance of Imagination”
President Faust, members of the Harvard
Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents,
and, above all, graduates.
The first thing I would like to say is ‘thank you.’ Not only has Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear and nausea I have endured at the thought of giving this commencement address have made me lose weight. A win-win situation! Now all I have to do is take deep breaths, squint at the red banners and convince myself that I am at the world’s largest Gryffindor reunion.
Delivering a commencement address is a
great responsibility; or so I thought until I cast my mind back to my own
graduation. The commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British
philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has helped me
enormously in writing this one, because it turns out that I can’t remember a
single word she said. This liberating discovery enables me to proceed without
any fear that I might inadvertently influence you to abandon promising careers
in business, the law or politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay
wizard.
You see? If all you remember in
years to come is the ‘gay wizard’ joke, I’ve come out ahead of Baroness Mary
Warnock. Achievable goals: the first step to self improvement.
Actually, I have wracked my
mind and heart for what I ought to say to you today. I have asked myself what I
wish I had known at my own graduation, and what important lessons I have
learned in the 21 years that have expired between that day and this.
I have come up with two
answers. On this wonderful day when we are gathered together to celebrate your
academic success, I have decided to talk to you about the benefits of failure.
And as you stand on the threshold of what is sometimes called ‘real life’, I
want to extol the crucial importance of imagination.
These may seem quixotic or
paradoxical choices, but please bear with me.
Looking back at the 21-year-old
that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the
42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy
balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me
expected of me.
I was convinced that the only
thing I wanted to do, ever, was to write novels. However, my parents, both of
whom came from impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to
college, took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing personal
quirk that would never pay a mortgage, or secure a pension. I know that the
irony strikes with the force of a cartoon anvil, now.
So they hoped that I would take
a vocational degree; I wanted to study English Literature. A compromise was
reached that in retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern
Languages. Hardly had my parents’ car rounded the corner at the end of the road
than I ditched German and scuttled off down the Classics corridor.
I cannot remember telling my
parents that I was studying Classics; they might well have found out for the
first time on graduation day. Of all the subjects on this planet, I think they
would have been hard put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it
came to securing the keys to an executive bathroom.
I would like to make it clear,
in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There
is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong
direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies
with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would
never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been
poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience.
Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand
petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts,
that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is
romanticised only by fools.
What I feared most for myself
at your age was not poverty, but failure.
At your age, in spite of a distinct lack
of motivation at university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar
writing stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a knack for passing
examinations, and that, for years, had been the measure of success in my life
and that of my peers.
I am not dull enough to suppose
that because you are young, gifted and well-educated, you have never known
hardship or heartbreak. Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone
against the caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that
everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and contentment.
However, the fact that you are
graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with
failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for
success. Indeed, your conception of failure might not be too far from the
average person’s idea of success, so high have you already flown.
Ultimately, we all have to
decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to
give you a set of criteria if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any
conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed
on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was
jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain,
without being homeless. The fears that my parents had had for me, and that I
had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was
the biggest failure I knew.
Now, I am not going to stand here
and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I
had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as
a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea then how far the tunnel
extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather
than a reality.
So why do I talk about the
benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the
inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what
I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that
mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have
found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly
belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realised, and I was
still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old
typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on
which I rebuilt my life.
You might never fail on the
scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live
without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as
well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.
Failure gave me an inner
security that I had never attained by passing examinations. Failure taught me
things about myself that I could have learned no other way. I discovered that I
had a strong will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out
that I had friends whose value was truly above the price of rubies.
The knowledge that you have
emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure
in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength
of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge
is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more
than any qualification I ever earned.
So given a Time Turner, I would tell my
21-year-old self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a
check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not
your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the
two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone’s total control, and
the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.
Now you might think that I
chose my second theme, the importance of imagination, because of the part it
played in rebuilding my life, but that is not wholly so. Though I personally
will defend the value of bedtime stories to my last gasp, I have learned to
value imagination in a much broader sense. Imagination is not only the uniquely
human capacity to envision that which is not, and therefore the fount of all
invention and innovation. In its arguably most transformative and revelatory
capacity, it is the power that enables us to empathise with humans whose
experiences we have never shared.
One of the greatest formative
experiences of my life preceded Harry Potter, though it informed much of what I
subsequently wrote in those books. This revelation came in the form of one of
my earliest day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories during my lunch
hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working at the African research
department at Amnesty International’s headquarters in London.
There in my little office I
read hastily scribbled letters smuggled out of totalitarian regimes by men and women
who were risking imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening
to them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without trace, sent to
Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I read the testimony of
torture victims and saw pictures of their injuries. I opened handwritten,
eye-witness accounts of summary trials and executions, of kidnappings and
rapes.
Many of my co-workers were
ex-political prisoners, people who had been displaced from their homes, or fled
into exile, because they had the temerity to speak against their governments.
Visitors to our offices included those who had come to give information, or to
try and find out what had happened to those they had left behind.
I shall never forget the
African torture victim, a young man no older than I was at the time, who had
become mentally ill after all he had endured in his homeland. He trembled
uncontrollably as he spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted
upon him. He was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a child. I
was given the job of escorting him back to the Underground Station afterwards,
and this man whose life had been shattered by cruelty took my hand with
exquisite courtesy, and wished me future happiness.
And as long as I live I shall
remember walking along an empty corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a
closed door, a scream of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The
door opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run and make
a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had just had to give him
the news that in retaliation for his own outspokenness against his country’s
regime, his mother had been seized and executed.
Every day of my working week in
my early 20s I was reminded how incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a
country with a democratically elected government, where legal representation
and a public trial were the rights of everyone.
Every day, I saw more evidence
about the evils humankind will inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or
maintain power. I began to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of
the things I saw, heard, and read.
And yet I also learned more
about human goodness at Amnesty International than I had ever known before.
Amnesty mobilises thousands of
people who have never been tortured or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on
behalf of those who have. The power of human empathy, leading to collective
action, saves lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal
well-being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers to save
people they do not know, and will never meet. My small participation in that
process was one of the most humbling and inspiring experiences of my life.
Unlike any other creature on
this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They
can think themselves into other people’s places.
Of course, this is a power,
like my brand of fictional magic, that is morally neutral. One might use such
an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or
sympathise.
And many prefer not to exercise
their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds
of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have
been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer
inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does
not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.
I might be tempted to envy
people who can live that way, except that I do not think they have any fewer
nightmares than I do. Choosing to live in narrow spaces leads to a form of
mental agoraphobia, and that brings its own terrors. I think the wilfully
unimaginative see more monsters. They are often more afraid.
What is more, those who choose
not to empathise enable real monsters. For without ever committing an act of
outright evil ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy.
One of the many things I
learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age
of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the
Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.
That is an astonishing
statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses,
in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we
touch other people’s lives simply by existing.
But how much more are you,
Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to touch other people’s lives? Your
intelligence, your capacity for hard work, the education you have earned and
received, give you unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your
nationality sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world’s
only remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the way you
protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your government, has an impact way
beyond your borders. That is your privilege, and your burden.
If you choose to use your
status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice;
if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless;
if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do
not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who
celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality
you have helped change. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all
the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine
better.
I am nearly finished. I have
one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends
with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my
children’s godparents, the people to whom I’ve been able to turn in times of
trouble, people who have been kind enough not to sue me when I took their names
for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our
shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the
knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be
exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.
So today, I wish you nothing
better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember
not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old
Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career
ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what
matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank-you very much.
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